Cog

My name is Van. I'm 30 years old, and I'm from Japan. I'm an artist, I'm a performance artist. I'm hired for people to fulfill their fantasies, their deep dark fantasies. I was gonna be a movie star - you know, with modeling and acting. After a hundred or two auditions and small parts, you know, I decided I had enough. Then I get into escort work. The clientele requested a lot of fetishes, so I just decided to go, you know, full master, and change my whole entire house into a dungeon - a dungeon master, you know, with a full dungeon in my house, and it's going really well.

Fisting is 300 bucks. And usually the guy is pretty much high on popper - to really get relaxed, you know, and I have this long latex glove that goes all the way up to my armpit. And then I put on a surgical latex glove, just up to my wrist, and just lube it up. And it's a long process, you know, to get your whole arm up there, but it's an intense feeling for the other person. I think for myself too - you go in places, even though it's physical, with your hand, but for some reason it's also more emotional. It's more psychological too, and we both, you know, reach the same place. It's really strange at the same time. And I found session like that I get really exhausted at the end.

I don't know, I feel kinda naked, because I'm looking at myself for the first time, I think. Well, not myself, but this aspect of my life for the first time. And it's been, gosh, 3 to 5 years already, and never thought about it. Kinda sad, I think, I feel kinda sad right now, I don't know why.